As the title says. But I'm not angry, or sad, or upset in anyway. There really should be a "moodless" emote here.
Anyway, school is over and my IAD is starting to come back. Except, most other people have lives and don't spend all their time here.
Without school I've lost my people to hate, and that doesn't make me happy.

My sister had her party and I saw May over the weekend. THAT made me happy. But that's a one-time thing. Stuff like this won't happen during the week. (They both have their jobs and personal lives getting in the way. I have nothing.)

I realize that, although I'm around my family for most of the day, we just ignore each other and go about our separate lives. So I have to be alone for all that time. Though I like my space, it just makes me bored and lonely...and kinda emo.

The closest to happiness I got just from being by myself is that I rode my bike around today. My dog likes to chase me around...
See, I'm a sub. Not only that, I'm lazy! I don't do much stuff without being told to do so, and without school I just bum around the house. I'm getting fat actually. I'm starting to get used to occupying my time with my bike and ab exersizes.
That won't make me happy.

One good thing happened: I had a dream. A night dream; one you actually get from sleeping. This is a big deal for me since I don't do it often. Not only that, I had GOD on my side. He took physical form and beat up my family. I just feel bad because I never slept long enough to see if I actually did save ~IheartJV.

I've been working on stuff for Elaine to see. I'm wondering what things DJ is up to. And I'm eating WAY too much; I eat and drink from boredom. And I'm willing to draw something for someone without a contest.
Still, none of this makes me happy.

_{And I'm sure SOMEONE is going to say I'm being really immature and I should grow up and face my problems. And, you know, that person would probably be right! But for now, I'm just going to vent in my journal and if you didn't feel like reading my backwash but kept going until you hit here then that's your fault!}